Tuesday, May 30
Honestly. Do you feel I'm a jerk?
I know I can be one when I have the mood for it. The only problem is that I don't realise I was one until reflect and then, hey, yeah, I was one. It may not have happened just that once. It may have been several times. But that's what is me, and I'm very grateful to all those that have tolerated me as of now, and will continue to tolerate me.
I highly doubt I will change drastically overnight. I've been on one too many personality roller-coasters, I'm not prepared to get on another one.
I'm sorry.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:16 pm
Monday, May 22
I realised something today. My list of blogger buddies never seem to shorten, but I've forgotten how I used to visit all of them. It seems to me that I've grown too busy to remember to check back on them. Well, it explains part of my sua-ku-ism.
Well, I'm taking this time before I start psycho lectures to browse through all of them, and I'm quite shocked to see all those people that started blogging again after almost a year of no activity. Actually, come to think of it, I miss all those times we hung out together wasting time doing practically... nothing. But hey, that's what friends are for. To nua with one another. Lol.
I know it's natural for people to drift away to walk along their own paths, but I'm looking forward to having some short time-outs and getting together a bit. Like my JC class peeps like Alvin, Huiling, June Yong, Hinky... I haven't seen them for ages. AGES. Really. Recently established back contact with Alvin, but can tell he's not really happy with whatever he's doing. Hinky's still in NBS, hopefully, but I don't know what else she's doing now. Huiling's... still mapling and studying at the same time, I guess. And June Yong... I really don't know, and that's kinda sad huh?
Peeps like Val and Meilinda from IRAS? I haven't even heard about them. Geez. And Val still owes me my FIR album, which was due... about a year ago. Now it's more like a gift to her already. I wonder if she still remembers it. Lol.
Sec school peeps? I think we are making an effort to try to celebrate birthdays, albeit we do it once like half a year? Then we cram everyone's birthday into one big event. Lol. But at least it's the effort that counts, you know, we still do meet up.
Totally lost contact (I mean TOTALLY) with primary school people, ever since JC. Come to think of it, I don't even see them in uni. What's up with all those people? It's like they vanished into thin air. =
Well, that about sums up my diminishing circle of friends. Yeah, pretty soon I'll have no friends.
Posted by Isabelle at 12:22 pm
Right now it's, let's see, 2.15am, and I'm still up reading through lecture notes on JC Maths C. Yeah. Took up some tuition to earn some shillings in my almost empty pockets. (So I can go crazy when the July Great Singapore Sales comes... No la.)
Anyway, I found out I really lost touch with maths. Things like complex numbers De Moirve's theorem, I thought those were mainly F maths stuff. The kids these days are taking it in their maths C syllabus. That's kinda sad for them. And I'm embarrassed to say that I can't teach them maths as fluently as I'm supposed to be, which explains the late-night reading up. Hey, I'm trying my best to impart to our younger generation some of my coughimmensecough knowledge leh. Lol.
But as much as I'm trying to be the model maths teacher, I think I needa sleep soon. Gonna have psycho lecture tomorrow, and I refuse to sleep in lectures. So far I'm damn proud of myself for being early for every single lesson, and being VERY attentive in class. (In fact, if I don't, who will copy my notes? Sigh.
Too bad I'm just the exemplary procrastinator. Wanted to read up on Saturday or at least today morning, but I'm just too stuck to my PS2. I know I've been playing some lame game like the FFX-2, but I'm not over the fact that I rushed through it the last time, and I really wanna get it perfected this time. I'm a sucker for perfection when it comes to games, don't ask me why.
Oh ya, talk about games. Just got this new, pirated FF XII from across the causeway. Hehe, I had to mention this, coz someone *ahem* I quote, "risked his butt" to get it smuggled into Singapore. Lol. Well, I was looking at the game in one of those ubiquitious pirate shops when I saw that it was in english, and I thought the english original was supposed to only come out late this year.
Well, I was right. The freaking game was in Japanese, but my jaws dropped at the realistic full motion videos at the start of the game. The game system is not bad too. It's no longer the kinds where you move around and then suddenly you are flashed into a screen fighting with the enemies. This time you can see the enemies, and you immediately go into combat with them. I can't really describe it here, but it's pretty cool. Looking forward to the english version end of this year.
Enough side-tracking. Gotta get back to maths. Sigh.
Posted by Isabelle at 2:19 am
Thursday, May 18
Posted something like this a while ago, then was looking at it when I thought of experimenting on it. Turns out to be some funny personality teller with er, paranormal personalities? Lol. I mean, the next time you encounter someone with the birthday that falls on February 30th, my advice is that you RUN.
Anyway, sidenote, this personality generator has no effect even if you input the month. Basically it 'selects' your personality simply by looking at the date you were born. That's kinda sad, that means I have same personalities with people born on Jan 4, Feb 4, Mar 4... Lol.
Your Birthdate: February 30 |
 You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March |
Posted by Isabelle at 11:18 am
Just came back from my 2nd class of psycho tutorial (yes, it's a freaking 8.30 lesson), then I remembered it's the holidays right? Then what the heck am I doing with my life. Sigh, well. At least what's changed is that I'm enjoying more now than the actual semester.
I'm not saying I don't enjoy psycho classes. In fact, I like what I'm studying now. (Thinking twice about my major. Nah. I still like my major.) And the lecturer is zai. I like his way of teaching, albeit you really can't find any corners to cut around him. Tutorial classes are pretty relaxed too. It's the preparation part I guess. You'd think I sleep with the textbook nowadays, but that's fine. Surprisingly I find some of the things in the textbook funny. Lol.
Anyway.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:54 am
Tuesday, May 16
| Your Birthdate: July 4 |
You have an extraordinary character - moral, responsible, and disciplined. Your sincerely and honesty shine through in almost every situation. Driven and focused, you rarely let your emotions get the better of you. You're level headed and rational. People count on your to look at things objectively. Your strength: Your unwavering loyalty and ethics Your weakness: Your rock solid stubbornness Your power color: Navy blue Your power symbol: Shield Your power month: April |
Kinda a little bullshitting, but well, can't say I'm not a believer either.
Posted by Isabelle at 12:25 am
Monday, May 15
Sigh. 4 more weeks of hell to survive through.
Sometimes I feel I'm so weak, I feel like breaking down. I'm not a freaking machine, I have mood swings too, and sometimes I feel I have more mood swings than others do, but I don't appear that way. And the reason why I don't usually act that way is because I don't like to display my weaknesses to people.
I don't want my mood bursts to affect other people, because ultimately people will feel obligated to tend to me, which makes me a 'burden', in some sense. I don't want that to happen, it makes me feel I'm too dependent on people.
But it's a paradox. Being too independent makes me sick, and I go gooey all over again. I'm a confused mess.
I think I said too much.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:27 pm
Thursday, May 11
Woo. Just finished the first series of Full Metal Panic. Not bad, there's adventure + romance, plus it's damn funny and cute, so it caters to quite a lot of people, especially people like me. =
Worth watching at least once.
Gonna start on the sequels to FMP soon. I'm trying to finish all my animes and shows and whatever junk I downloaded from IRC, so I can clear them from my harddisk and load more junk into it. Lol. Sounds good anyway.
Posted by Isabelle at 12:36 pm
Wednesday, May 10
Went for supper with quite a few of them. Cheng, Alicia, Ziwei, Hanwee, James, Ben, Adeline, Xin. Woo. That's quite a lot of people. Funny thing was we split groups and ate at different dim sum places only to get back together for soya drinks and you tiao. Kinda weird, but anyway. Really a little hard for big groups to travel together, especially when they are travelling in 2 cars.
Nothing much I guess.
Posted by Isabelle at 2:41 am
Tuesday, May 9
Finally finished reading up on my first chapter of psycho. Damn taxing. Really have to force myself to read up every chapter after lectures so I don't fall behind the pace of the class. Die.
Anyway, finally mastered the girl's part melody for Shan Hu Hai. That song is damn hard to harmonise, but I think I got it. Heh. Will have to go K-box to try it out.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:44 am
Monday, May 8
Just came back from IMM, and a run. Didn't feel so good after the run though. Usually I'll feel refreshed, but today was stuffy and a little out of breath even after I bathed. Not good. Sigh. I'm losing it.
First class for Psycho today. Not bad, I like the lecturer, but I have no friends =(, and I'm anti-social when it comes to these things, but I like the course I'm doing now, albeit it's really taxing. I'm glad I took it only during the intersem, if not I don't think I'll be able to cope with it along with all my cores.
And for the whole five weeks of lesson, we'll have weekly quizzes. Damn xiong. You'll really have to keep up to date with the lectures, but you don't seem to need to do tutorials. The first tutorial I printed out looks like primary school class activity. =
Well.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:22 pm
Sunday, May 7
Just came back from a relaxing weekend at JB. Woo, nice food, nice accommodation, perfect for a recuperation trip from all those exams. Didn't do much shopping though, our main aim was to chill out in the hotel and watch movies. Lol. Relaxing wad.
Tomorrow I'm starting my first lesson in Psychology. Kinda excited. Been looking through some of the lecture notes, and I guess it's pretty historical and yet scientifical. We'll see what goes on tomorrow.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:16 pm
Saturday, May 6
I finally finished my project. The big project I was working on since the start of the semester. Dateline was supposed to be on the last day of April, but bo pian, had to seek approval to push back the dateline. Lol.
And tomorrow I can finally submit it. It's a little off what I wanted it to be, but given the limited time, I guess it's my best shot. Could have added a few more things given more time.
Posted by Isabelle at 3:29 am
Wednesday, May 3
What's with gay blogs these days? Lol. Not that I'm anti or anything, I'm just kinda feeling sad for the women out there. What happened to us? I mean, it's practically an an insult when you see good-looking guys decide to abandon all hope for the female race and join up with one of their own. And it's all one-too-many cases.
*shakes head*
Posted by Isabelle at 10:31 pm
Monday, May 1
Now that exams are over and done with, I have plenty of time on my hands, which I will probably devote half of that time to watching shows and animes. Heh.
Anyway.
Gundam Seed is a really sad show.
Been watching it the whole day, man it's a good show to watch. I mean what could be sadder than seeing two best friends turn against each other in a battlefield? The fighting's good though, and on top of that, there's this love pentagon going on. Lol.
Left with 7 episodes, and I'm done with it. Not bad.
Gonna sleep for now.